One of
the things that has caused me stress in recent years is the loss of short-term
memory power. Okay, that's old news for
many and for a great number of others, something to be ignored until it
arrives.
Trouble
is you never notice it arriving. It's
only after the event that it dawns on you - or someone else knocks you round
the head to help you realise.
That's
where your circle of good friends and family come in handy. Provided you can remember where you left
them. If they're really good they'll
come looking for you. Pure love knows no
impediment. It might make you pay with
constant reminders of your misdemeanor, but only in a forgiving, leg-breaking
kind of way. Said group of people will also
be very adaptable to your altering language skills.
Take for
instance the situation where one is in the early stages of what is going to be
more than a decade of miserable and ever-changing internal processes that
affect one's mental and emotional, not to mention physical, stability. Medical science has a name for it, but part
of the process for oneself is to resist use of that particular term. So many other words get used. In the initial stages of course there is
denial - indeed ignorance. There is no explaining how the butter got into the oven
all by its ownsome. One also tries to
distance oneself by use of the objective (third) person. Perhaps that ought to read objectionable.
So many
other words? Yes. Please understand, I
am not a blasphemer and do find the use of such language shocking to the
system. For one extended spell of a few
months, however, the words were
astounding. Most are unprintable. Given that most of them were also pure
fabrication, many were unpronounceable, .
Well, now, anyway. At the time I
managed fine but that's only because, at the
time, the brain was absent and therefore not getting in the way of word
production. Useless bit of material at
times, the brain.
The thing
is it all makes sense whilst the saying of it is being done. It's only the blank stare on the other side
of the space between the speaker and the spoken-to which indicates there has
been a problem in communication.
The real
trouble comes when asked to repeat what has been said. This is an actual impossibility. First, the words were original artworks,
one-offs, with colour hues indiscernible to the human ear. There are plenty
more coming from the same source, but they themselves can never be the
same. Once uttered, they become
unutterable.
Second,
it requires short-term memory power.
"Got none of that happening" is what dawns in that awful
moment.
Thus,
dear reader, at this early point in proceedings pertaining to Wild YAM, you
have been warned. I cannot truly account
for what follows due to having been infected with menomonomumal.
Know the feeling very well.
ReplyDeleteHari Om
ReplyDeleteI knew I had a compatriot out there somewhere!