This is a re-post from very early in MENO-blog... but as this is ultimately a message of the capital 'ell', it felt appropriate to share it again.
Menoceasal [men-oh-see-sul]; the condition of not being.
Christ surrendered his physical self that humankind could find its way to the fullest Spiritual Self. The Father ensures each of us is in the place we need to be - if we are not ready for Him yet, that's okay. He'll still watch out for us, as any parent will for a rebellious child. He'll also ensure we have the aid and support we require on our journey. He gave me a wonderful family. He found me some incredible friends. He sent me Jade.
Menoceasal [men-oh-see-sul]; the condition of not being.
One of
the things that has been troubling me of late is the short-term memory
function. It has ceased. Did I mention it before?
Since the
monthly 'mutational' ceased, the said function really showed its absence. Other
things ceased also. Like the need to
take charge. Or the desire to climb
trees. The energy for gardening. Thank heavens for kindly
neighbours who fretted if the grass got over half an inch long.
Then
there was the cessation of a will to live.
Yeah, that
one took me by surprise. I like the
dark. Can be very creative in the
dark. This, however, was not a dark with which I
was familiar. It came upon me
during a major dose of bronchitis, several winters back. Yup the old lungs again. They'll be the death of me I tell ya.
Which is
what started that whole "why doesn't it just cease now anyway" line
of thinking. It sort of fits in with the
menomonocanticle state. There was nobody
who would really miss me if I turned over right then and there. All I had to do was stop taking the
meds. I'd slip away in the night. YAM ceased.
There was no fear. No emotion. I
was ready.
Jade Dog
MacWoof, on the other paw, was not. She
apparently heard me discussing this with myself and stuck her nose into
proceedings. Literally. All wet and cold and "shift over mother I'm
coming in that there bed with you".
The night
ceased and so did all the thinking. Another thing had ceased I realised, (once I had the thinking cap set straight again). 'Me' the ego. Not my sense of identity as such, but the part that was constantly battling with the world. In that process of letting go of 'life' I had surrendered totally in spirit. It was a short while after this that things took a swing in a direction that could never have been foretold.
Love with
the capital L. It'll save you every
time. May it never cease.
Love is all there is!
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