MY TAKE; doses of Wild YAM : Men=0... Not Much, Mentally Speaking

Yeah, it's been a strange week and the old mental state is a bit ragged. That is to say, just a bit absent. It would be easy to point to the endless grey, wet, windy days - but that would be unfair, as there were two hours of sunshine yesterday and at least one on Monday... It might be as easy to point to the shortened daylight hours and the need for lamps due to the extreme overcast nature of the aforementioned weather - but that would also be unfair.

It is really about my own lessened self-discipline. It went all to pot in 2020, not just for the obvious reasons that everyone experienced, but because of the ridiculous schedule one had to adapt to in care of the father. Although back in the Hutch for eleven months now, I have simply failed to regain my full inner balance and determined adhesion to ashram hours.

Most damaging of all is the mental discipline. I really have become lax. There are glimmers of the full me starting to shine through again recently but am having some difficulty herding all those sheepish thoughts into a cohesive herd.

As much as anything, though, there is the sense of change - needing one, plotting one... or having one come at me all unexpected like. When I get that feeling, it can be in gestation for quite some time. Or it can be sudden. If it proves to be anything at all, guaranteed you'll know about it soon enough. But for now, am just a bit blank. So forgive this rambling post.

Let me give it purpose... NEXT WEEK IS FINAL FRIDAY AGAIN ALREADY!!! Seems just a blink since I said that last month. There it is, though, your seven-day warning. Get out your images, shake them around and tell a story about them.

11 comments:

easyweimaraner19 November 2021 at 12:58
we hope we all can find our inner balance back... if the world is out of balance, at least we have to be well balanced...
The bike shed19 November 2021 at 15:37
I find that creativity - along with the flow and focus which accompanies it - comes in periods that ebb and flood. Perhaps finding our inner balance is something similar? A long time ago I learned that I never 'find' time - rather, I have to 'make' it, and to do that my mind has to be in the right place. I find it can't be forced though in truth, a little discipline helps.
None of this is an exact analogy to what you are sharing, but perhaps it is tangential enough?
Have a good weekend.
WFT Nobby19 November 2021 at 16:18
Ragged mental state quite understandable for many reasons. Cohesion will come!
MadSnapper19 November 2021 at 18:23
Dear Friend, you have just described exactly how I feel. Before 2020 my habits and routines were all set. Now, no matter how I try i can't seem to get back to what I once did, it has effected my exercise completely. and for no reason. most of them are done in my home, they are simple and must be done faithfully to work. I will do them for a few days and find myself thinking, when was the last time I did my leg exercises. It has effected everything I do..my shopping, my bill paying, any thing that was just routine has become a chore and easy to forget. I see Bertie says Ragged mental state... that is exactly how I feel...going on 2 years now. I want a change I need a change, I fear there is no way to change. My inner balance is no more.
My Mind's Eye19 November 2021 at 19:00
YAM you must have web cam hidden in my mind's eye.
Bryan and I still think back over the last (nearly) 2 years in disbelief.
Hugs Cecilia
My Mind's Eye19 November 2021 at 19:01
PS thank you for the HEADS up I had almost forgotten FFF was quickly approaching.
But no worries I have an idea.
Hugs Cecilia
Tigger's Mum19 November 2021 at 21:00
Dear YAM-aunty,
See? It wasn't so much of a rambling as you might have feared. You have struck a nerve in the writhings of our society. We read it this morning and decided this one needed some thinking time before a comment, and it seems that others have expressed similar ideas that our 'old lives' are no more and none of us feel we have yet seen the light at the end of the tunnel to whatever new life pattern we are able to establish for ourselves. For the right personalities, disruption can be a force for good, a time to reflect, a catalyst for positive change. Furrings and purrings Mr T and F
The Adventures of the LLB Gang19 November 2021 at 23:52
I totally understand...things haven't quite shaken out with me either. I think 2022 may be a year of changing and adapting a new sense of day to day normal for me.

Duke20 November 2021 at 04:30
Life can be difficult at times. I do understand.
♥♥ The OP Pack ♥♥20 November 2021 at 07:29
Guess we can join the gang and fit right in with the same spirit of imbalance and malaise here too.
Millie and Walter20 November 2021 at 22:20
We all are a little off balance since dealing with the pandemic and you had the added burden of caring for your dad. It's understandable to feel the way you do. We hope you can find your inner balance soon.