This week's posts will be low on content as I settle back into the Hutch and gaze upon the Cowal hills once more, and let my eyes drift 'doon the watter' of the Clyde inlet.
It's going to be strange, there can be no denying. For eighteen months my life has been entirely given over to father's cares. Bit by bit there was nothing left but that. Now it is time to renew. A time to review. A time to decide what is to be restored or what can be left behind as history.
Maybe that time would have come anyway, but there as an added impetus, I feel. It is interesting how, when one becomes 'the elder' of one's group, a sense of urgency arises as to what remains to be done, versus what can simply be dropped. Life's processes ever engage us...
I truly understand YAM. Eighteen months of caregiver responsibility is a large slice of time. Give yourself lots of time and space to renew, remember and replenish your needs.
ReplyDeleteHugs Cecilia
Seconding Cecilia's wise words. Not a time to rush major decisions.
ReplyDeleteI did not realize it has been that long, and half of that 18 months was during this pandemic. Take your time, we are here when you want us to be or need us to be..
ReplyDeleteIt must be strange to be the eldest now. And I wish I could see you in person and give you a hug, but I guess we won't be doing that any time soon. Just remember, we are all only a few clicks away...
ReplyDeleteKlem
My dear friend. You take it easy. It's been an amazingly weird year, aside from your caregiving. Even that has thrown us all for a loop. I'm feeling a bit loopy, myself. I am so tired. Emotionally drained. xx
ReplyDeleteBe kind to yourself. Please. We all love you. You are such a beautiful person. You've been giving so much to your family. All the best.
We hope you will be able to recharge your batteries now that you are back at the Hutch. It will take some time to get back into a new routine for you. As the other's have noted we are also still dealing with the pandemic too so take care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteAs the elder now of a group of two, I have nothing to add, save enjoy the journey.
ReplyDeleteAnd we believe it was eighteen months that may have been very challenging at times, but you managed to fill it with love for your father. Take the time you need now to reflect and revive. It will be time well spent.
ReplyDeletewe agree and we need time to carry on and to remember...
ReplyDeleteIt was eighteen months well spent and you can never have that time back. It becomes so important to you as you move forward. Hugs♥
ReplyDeleteThanks for your post. Hugs
ReplyDeleteGreat view to lose ones self in! 18 months is a long time. I found 6 months gruelling. I don't regret a moment. It changed me and I have found l now appreciate the little things more.
ReplyDeleteSending you love and strength
Barb
You will be blessed, Yamini, for all the time, attention and care you are giving to your dear father. My best wishes :-)
ReplyDeleteHi Yam = you've had a tough 18 months ... sadly ending for your father - you've done wonders. Take your time ... it's a time to mull things, no rush ... time to recover, spring will come in many ways ... and you'll have your personal Spring ... I just wish you a peaceful Christmas and New Year and with time to look out over your Cowal hills ... with thoughts for you now and as the time passes on from down south - big hugs - Hilary
ReplyDeleteMy husband is the eldest of his cousins. He feels a responsibility to remain connected. namaste, janice xx
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